Im not on here for wht ur going threw but when i was n middle school i use to cut. I had a very low self esteem. I couldnt talk to my friends cuz they wouldnt n couldnt understand my feelings. Couldnt talk to my family cuz my family is like a big mouth bass...when they open everything comes out n nothing is private. I cut for awhile and finally made myself stop for awhile. When i would get upset or get to that point id go for a bike ride or play papa roach or someother kinda loud pissed off music really loud and just sing and think that always helped me then i started to writr. Like keeping a journal. Not a diary but a journal. Some ppl find talking, writing, singing or wrking out helpful. And sometimes being alone is best, that way u can think n take ur mind off it or think aloud or if having someone there for company helps then kool but make sure u can find someone u TRUST to talk to.

You need to b careful on the cutting cuz u may end up getting kicked out the military or worse...killing urself. U have millions of vains and it dont take long to bleed out. Not sure how deep ur cutting but just b careful. Try and remeber u have ppl who care about you. U have ur family who im sure loves you n cares and friends who love n care for u and then u have all the civilians who thank you everyday for keeping us safe. It would b a tragedy if u were to slip up n something aweful happen to u. Just member that....and if u ever need someone to talk to im here...sometimes an outsides point of view is helpful. :) goodluck